“Never follow your dreams follow your efforts.”

“Never follow your dreams follow your efforts.”

Mark Cuban Internet Billionaire
The full quote is actually: “Never follow your dreams. Follow your effort. It’s not about what you can dream of. That’s easy. It’s about whether or not it’s important enough to you to do the work to be ready to be successful in that business.”

This quote comes from the not-so-shy not-so-reserved billionaire Mark Cuban during an online Q&A he did for the Freakonomics blog. The full Q&A is here.

Well the quote is so simple and poignant that it made me write about it. LOL This is like an epiphany for me; I’ve seen the light. Of course you shouldn’t follow your dreams. Nobody does when you think about it. Most people follow their efforts. Sure ability matters, who you know, as well as other factors like genetic endowments, and the resources you have at your disposal play a role in your capacity for success in this life; But most success stories don’t come down to a genetic lottery or dumb luck. The dream is the beginning. The dream is the easy part as Mark said. Sayings like “you can achieve if you believe,” is true but what have you done, what do you do? I just gotta say that’s awesome.

I’ve always been a dreamer; sometimes a deep thinker. Like too deep. Like so deep I can’t get out of my own head. I forget sometimes where I am in the present, I fantasize and pine for an idyllic future that I have not prepared for myself. That’s probably why I write blog posts like “When does the dream end?” and when I’m in my dream state I write “Utopians make the world go round” part 1 and get inspired by Utopians make the world go round
part 2. I get inspired because I wish I was one of the people I read and write about. But they followed their efforts after they had visions, they acted. Well I stopped doing New Year’s resolutions because I never kept to them after a few months, but I know I have to change my life, I have to do something that makes a difference in the world.

It all clicks now-Yea It all clicks LOL.

When does the dream end?

I wrote a song called Lucid Dream finished it late last year but never really shared it with anyone. It’s because I’ve become very conflicted with this song. It’s called Lucid Dream. It’s about shaping this life to fit your imagination and desired plans, purpose……….

I don’t know if I feel that way nowadays. So much is out of control, so much is given to misfortune or good fortune, sometimes it feels like you just prepare for the best and plan for the worst- that’s it………………………………………..

I hate these type of thoughts! Maybe I hate reality LOL! Is that what it all comes down to? “Hope for the best pray for the worst?” It’s real. But what are most of us doing to increase our chances at success or economic repair? I believe our capability as humans is far reaching and I know of history’s luminaries and the not so illustrious who have succeeded after years of failure. But sometimes, sometimes….sometimes……………………………………………………..you just need time to recharge.
Here’s the song for those who stumble upon this page.

Lyrics

I live ina lucid dream feel the breeze as I venture/
through a blurry scene/
autonomy in this dimension/
I see it all clear with eyes closed/
I forego the drudgery the monotony the panicking hypocrisy/
No more violence just a silencing/
As I stroll through the peace/
The quiet ambiance my transport till I find my release/
I can touch the cosmos celestial bodies without angel wings/
TO think they can say my visions are the stuff that’re made of make believe/
mabye that’s why they sleep on me and do not see me seriously/
Lend ears to the blind, hearts to the frauds and try to live vicariously/
Me I’m in the twilight while they all wonder wearily with my head in the clouds throught turbulent skies as the music carries me/
Away from the trance at the hands of the sand man, I dream but I don’t sleep/
I view a plane to sustain my glance, control my destiny/
I do it all before silent night/
I fit the world to my insights/
The saddest part about most of y’all /
most of yall will never try….

2nd Verse

I see 4 walls one ceiling one floor there’s no clocks but one door nobody knows where I’ve gone/

Time waves every second/

Calender pages leave men breathless/

But in my mind the world stretches/

I can raise my reach to heaven/

I await the noble thief, body-snatcher that brings me peace/

The accomplice to my escape, my only hope a lucid dream/

Gives me patience when there’s no ventillation for me to breath/

See there’s no suffocation where I go, room for inhalation where I’ll be/

In a stratosphere where hatred and fear will no long surround me/

And I no longer have to swim with zombies and feel like I am drowning!/

There’s more light than heat, there’s more signal than noise/

If you can hear the shrill calling then I welcome you to join/

My brother told me no man is an island but I avoid the adage/

and I challenge the orthodoxy of the norm/

The unknown doesn’t scare me I’m still alive through the storm/

My eyes dry by the fire that burns/

I climb high altitudes to find my way home/

I bitch about the Economy because I don’t know what else to do.

NEWS FLASH!

I’m a dreamer stuck in a Dystopian reality

Graphic Design is now Web Design

Web Design is now Web Development

So you are now unqualified for a webdesign job if you don’t know html 1-5, XML, CSS 1-3, Java, Javascript, JQuery, PHP, Java, C#, Actionscript 1-3(4 coming), MySQL and Ruby on Rails, Adobe Illustrator, and Adobe Photoshop? And even more impressively someone with this skill set is only deserving of $25 MAXIMUM SALARY!!! LOL What the Fuck?!

Another reason I’m whining is because I can’t fit all of this into Twitter but that’s neither her nor there.

What is one to do?

I want to get pissed at employers but if they don’t have resources to hire 3 different experts or professionals, they have  little choice but to do this- take the job requirements of 3 positions and squeeze them into one. And of course, this penny-pinching mentality has extended beyond hiring practices.  For instance, look at the healthcare field. I know nurses who tell me when a staff member leaves they are not being replaced as they used to do in the past. The  hospital administration is leaving the position vacant and asking the nurses and other workers on the floor to take care of more patients. I’ve heard this from my peers who are teachers; school admins are taking the same measures to cut down on spending. O yea, this is why I never bitched and moaned about the economy last year like I did in prior years.  I don’t have any frickin solutions! Who does except for the vocal few(Ron Paul, Max Keiser, et al) who are marginalized by less rational voices and opinions(all the people who voted for Newt Gingrich and Romney in the primaries WOW). I believe if Ron Paul ran as a democrat he’d have a much more successful presidential campaign.

Utopians make the world go round part 2 –Must Read–

“Often all it takes is a simple flipping of the coin to gain perspective and begin one’s journey: on the flipside of neuroticism, lies sensitivity, on the flipside of rage, lies passion; with difference comes the insight of unique perception, and within an “overly active” imagination lies boundless possibility.”

“You don’t have to be naturally brilliant to become a visionary; you just have to follow through and refine your craft. You don’t have to believe in yourself, so much as believe in the importance of the journey you are on or choosing to embark upon — the innate worth of visioning, of going deeper, of creating something where there was nothing, of giving some kind of insight or inspiration to the world. Believe in the value of adding your voice, however thin and wavering, to the chorus of voices throughout history who have called out: I am here. This is how it feels to be alive, this is how it feels to be me. How does it feel for you? “

Please Read continue reading. I don’t need to say anything further. This blog post by Tai Carmen captures all that the Utopian searches for, all that the Utopian is.

The Outsider As Visionary ~ part II by Tai Carmen

December 16th, 2011 § 25 Comments

“In an overstructured world only the misfit is free.” ~ Tom Robbins

“Your visions will become clear only when you look into your heart. Who looks outside dreams. Who looks inside, wakens.” ~Carl Jung

“Vision without execution is hallucination.”~ Thomas Edison

The word visionary is a nebulous term, evoking mad bouts of genius or peyote smoking shamans, but we shouldn’t be scared off by the word’s exotic implication. In its simplest form, a visionary is one having or marked by foresight and imagination, fresh ideas that push the boundaries of the accepted or the known.

“When you grow up,” remarks Apple computer visionary Steve Jobs, ”you tend to get told the world is the way it is and your life is just to live your life inside the world. Try not to bash into the walls too much. Try to have a nice family life, have fun, save a little money.

“That’s a very limited life. Life can be much broader once you discover one simple fact, and that is — everything around you that you call life, was made up by people that were no smarter than you. And you can change it, you can influence it, you can build your own things that other people can use.”

In our last post about The Outsider, we discussed common traits, identifying the outsider as one who, to quote French novelist Henri Barbusse “sees too deep and too much.”

The Outsider is sensitive, often with introverted tendencies, imaginative, many times plagued by a sense of isolation and unreality. He does not identify with the common values of the society around him, rebelling against the role he’s been given, often out of pure necessity. Many don’t rebel, but remain outsiders forever in their hearts. To these I would encourage an outlet of self-expression. The outsider, simply put, is a square peg who finds himself in a world full of round holes.

Of course this, combined with natural sensitivity, will inevitably create some neuroticism in the typical Outsider, for which he is well known.

But, the Outsider need not be tortured by his difference. Rather, he can recognize that within his unique perspective, within his sensitivity and keen ability to “see too deep and too much” — his power of noticing what others miss, of being on the outside looking in at the way the world works — lies the seed of the visionary. This is the true destiny, the true potential, of the Outsider.

“The visionary,” Colin Wilson notes, “is inevitably an outsider.”

Often all it takes is a simple flipping of the coin to gain perspective and begin one’s journey: on the flipside of neuroticism, lies sensitivity, on the flipside of rage, lies passion; with difference comes the insight of unique perception, and within an “overly active” imagination lies boundless possibility.

Without recognition of their own potential gifts, without a constructive outlet for their depth and intensity, the frustrated Outsider can become easily depressed. We’re already sensitive, and once we submit to the pain of our own hearts, often the deluge of the world’s collective suffering rushes in as well. The unexpressed outsider can even pose a  danger to themselves or others. As the great Lebanese American poet Khalil Gibran once observed:

For what is evil but good tortured by its own hunger and thirst? Verily when good is hungry it seeks food even in dark caves, and when it thirsts, it drinks even of dead waters.

Which is why it is essential to push in the direction of our potential. An unexpressed dreamer is like a beautifully made guitar that never gets played, but hangs collecting dust on the wall.

It’s easy to let oneself off the hook with the protest that one doesn’t have any fantastic potential. This is a cop-out. No one just picks up a pen and writes the great American novel; they put years and years into studying the craft of writing. They submit wayward drafts to ruthless revision and often scrap fledgling starts (Flaubert’s first novel was so full of flaws, he ended up burning it at the urging of his friends, after which he wrote  Madam Bovaryconsidered a masterpiece. James Joyce’s first attempt at a novel, Stephen Hero, was rejected by publishers and never saw the light of day, but later became reworked into one of his most influential and critically acclaimed works, Portrait of the Artist As A Young Man.)

It’s a myth that the ‘true genius’ just starts painting and pulls a Picasso out of the essence of his magnificent spirit. Picasso studied formally from the age of seven onward. While Mozart showed extreme aptitude at a young age, it was no less his dedication which brought about the fruits of what is now called his genius.

You don’t have to be naturally brilliant to become a visionary; you just have to follow through and refine your craft.

You don’t have to believe in yourself, so much as believe in the importance of the journey you are on or choosing to embark upon — the innate worth of visioning, of going deeper, of creating something where there was nothing, of giving some kind of insight or inspiration to the world.

Believe in the value of adding your voice, however thin and wavering, to the chorus of voices throughout history who have called out: I am here. This is how it feels to be alive, this is how it feels to be me. How does it feel for you? 

“The vitality of the ordinary members of society is dependent on its Outsiders,” notes Colin Wilson. Despite, he might add, messages of conformity to the contrary. “It is their strenuousness that purifies thought and prevents the bourgeois world from foundering under its own dead-weight; they are society’s spiritual dynamos.”

Everyone loves a successful visionary, but while one is still visioning, and brewing one’s ideas, when one is simply on the journey of discovering one’s source of strength and insight, the road of the Outsider who dares to dream is no easy foot trail.

Of course, once you’ve created some kind of product — a book, a technology, an album  – then our consumer-oriented society feels more inclined towards praise, or at least the begrudging admission that perhaps you’re not totally crazy.

Until that time, however, you must be strong. You must be the source of your own illumination; remain tenacious, patient, determined. Some days you won’t be able to summon any of these feelings, and in that case, give yourself the day off. But come morning, rise again.

The visionary is one who is tapped in to the invisible forces inhabiting mankind’s collective imagination. As Jonathan Swift  said,”Vision is the art of seeing the invisible.”  In his Psychology Today article, “Long Fuse, Big Bang,” Eric C. Haseltine, Ph.D elaborates:

“Neuroscientists have learned that the brain is an extremely efficient consumer of energy (calories from food) because it cuts corners and cheats. For example, instead of ingesting and processing all available information — and in the process consuming a tremendous amount of energy — the brain throws away most of what it senses, and frugally focuses only on a tiny percent of information that’s likely to be valuable. Ignorant brains are efficient brains, and efficient brains run cool.

“So what does your brain’s temperature (or lack of it) have to do with becoming a visionary? Everything. Another way of describing your brain’s strategy of willful ignorance is blindness. [...]  Becoming a visionary is simply a matter of knowing where your brain’s hard-wired blind spots are, then focusing your mind’s eye into those blind spots.”

In other words, a person who doesn’t see or think like the rest will be all the more likely to have a visionary perspective, and pushing one’s own boundaries of perception will pay off creatively. Open your mind, embrace your own unique perspective, brew it, dream it, study the craft of it, and add your voice to the chorus.

Utopians make the world go round part 1

“And I have always wished that for myself.”

“And now, as you graduate to begin anew, I wish that for you.”

“Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish.”

“Your time is limited, so don’t waste it living someone else’s life. Don’t be trapped by dogma — which is living with the results of other people’s thinking. Don’t let the noise of others’ opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.”

— Steve Jobs

Martin Luther King was a visionary a dreamer

“Nonviolence means avoiding not only external physical violence but also internal violence of spirit. You not only refuse to shoot a man, but you refuse to hate him.”
“We must learn to live together as brothers or perish together as fools.”

“When you are right you cannot be too radical; when you are wrong, you cannot be too conservative.”

—Martin Luther King, Jr.

Thomas Edison
“I have not failed, I’ve just found 10,000 ways that won’t work.” ~

Thomas Edison

“I prefer to be true to myself, even at the hazard of incurring the ridicule of others, rather than to be false, and to incur my own abhorrence.”

—Fredrick Douglas

“Do what you feel in your heart to be right- for you’ll be criticized anyway. You’ll be damned if you do, and damned if you don’t.”

—Eleanor Roosevelt

Most quotes were found and cited on this page: Brainy Quotes

Hip Hop is still alive.The Best Cypher on BET ever.

I didn’t need this cypher to prove to me Mcing was still alive, but it puts a smile on my face, because it reinforces what I already knew. Hip Hop has always been alive–music has always been alive, art is still alive. Because no matter how disastrous the music industry becomes after art collides with commerce there will always be the few willing to buck the trend. There will always be people who aren’t too cool for their craft of art, dance, singing, poetry, writing, songwriting/emceeing. Real Hip-hop cypher between real lyricists. All nasty. I have shivers this was amazing it was glorious it was Emceeing at it’s finest. Beastmode. It was impetuous, brilliant wordplay, it was scary, it was harmful to wack rapper’s bank account, it was…………

Reactionary vs Progressive Activism

I meant to publish this some time ago, but it does have relevance in light of the 9/11 anniversary.

Reactionary vs Purposeful activism. I am no shining model of revolutionary living myself. I am not a warrior on the battlefield against social injustice, I’m not a freedom fighter against enemies of the people. Not to say I am not willing to be all those things, I’m just trying to figure it all out still, I guess. I am not really an activist in any sense of the word either. I am a bleeding heart progressive with lofty vague objectives—I keep an unrequited love for the world that only a romantic could muster. I aspire to see a “better world,” or “make the world a better place,” or better still, “spread love and positivity anywhere I can.” That’s probably why I am so passive in my particular implementation of “activism.” I haven’t defined plans or goals, but it honestly makes me feel good. Watching the recent events in the news concerning the London Riots, and the actions of Anonymous, Lulsec etc, I’ve come to the conclusion that most of these people never have defined goals either. I feel great for donating to causes here and there, feeding the homeless, and signing online petitions but what is the goal of it all? What is the plant? I’ve always felt like every act of altruism is a counter to the evil in the world; I want to feel like I am making a difference no matter the size of the contribution. I truly feel like charity and volunteer work does do good for some people. Many people might call my views delusional, lacking in pragmatism, a very lackadaisical attempt at solving real world issues. But I understand, the truth is no one man or woman can solve all real world issues. It takes a group of like minded individuals to devise a plan to impact society in a productive and purposeful way. Different groups dedicate time, energy, resources, to causes they find the most important. For instance, if a group of people want Congress to repeal an act, or pass an act,(think civil rights, net neutrality, healthcare bill) Who is the audience? How will they receive my message(literally & figuratively)? How does a group appeal to such a governing body?

No matter the cause, people who aspire to bring change need to plan and anticipate the affects of their actions. Let’s look at the Tea party.

I don’t agree with many of the views of the Tea Party, but they were able to change one of the two major political parties in America through an unrelenting grass roots movement. They disassociated from the more rogue elements trying to join their movement (White nationalists, Neo-Nazis, racists, etc) and were able to maintain credibility(relatively) in a public space. Some might say technically they were backed by the very wealthy Koch brothers so maybe they aren’t the best example of  a grassroots movement. But money isn’t the issue here it was the methods of public protest. Their public outcries and outreach caught the media’s fascination and spotlight. Their methodology of protest was very similar to that of the civil rights movement and the women’s rights movement. These groups were able to gain traction in the idea marketplace. Just like in business, no one wants to buy what you’re selling if it isn’t presentable. No one wants your services if you aren’t presentable, and no one wants to hear your voice if you cannot present them in a responsible sensible way.

My brother sent me an articlecontaining an interview with a rioter’s response to causes of the chaos. And he said, “if we don’t riot, then you won’t listen to us.” I don’t know the guys age, but I’m guessing he’s very young. He gave a very short answer loaded with meaning to demonstrate a youthful rebellion. This guy may have a political stance, but is misguided in carrying it out. Who will be receptive to his ideas after these events? Who will listen after millions of £’s in damages to small businesses and public services in the surrounding community? If anything, your voice has become more marginalized now then before. You are a rebel without aim; you are a scourge to society; you are not a threat to the establishment you detest, you are a threat to everyone! If you wanted a voice, I know law enforcement will definitely be listening now, that’s for sure. I heard on NPR today an English judge sentenced a young man to 4 years in prison for inciting violence in his own town. Harsh, but once again: Cause and affect.

Watch this video.

This is not an opinion. This is not a position in an argument. This is a visceral simple-minded reaction to complex matters. It will make you feel good (if you get away with it) but it will not and does not help anyone.
Youtube embed:

And I am not saying radical times don’t call for radical measures.

For example, I think if Americans want to gain back autonomy and correct the democratic process from corporate tyranny it will take radical action. I watched a documentary on Ancient Greece which captured what I feel might have to happen worldwide lol. In the documentary a tyrant (a man named Isagoras) pissed off the people of Greece to the point of mass uprisings and fighting, of which forced the regime up a mountain, leading to a more democratic state. The tyrant was exiled and the people chose a new ruler who came up with the first example of modern democracy.

I believe any kind of peace comes from understanding and living with a purpose and duty to yourself and others. And I believe resolve comes from acting with courage and insight. Children act out impulsively when they don’t get what they want.

The Tree of Life is one of the greatest films ever made.

Where are you?

Powerful visuals fill this movie

Art is human expression; it captures historical moments, movements, people and places; art conveys human triumphs, human struggles, human hopes and dreams; art captures the human experience. By my definition, I believe there has been no greater form of art created than the motion picture/film/movie. And having said that, The Tree of Life is one of the greatest movies I’ve ever witnessed. A classic film, not just by today’s standards, but in the history of film making. It’s an ambitious film in its style and message, but Terrence Malik takes you on a journey to explore life’s essence in 2 hours and 14 min.

The movie starts with a light and a bible verse,

Where were you when I laid the earth’s foundation … while the morning stars sang together and all the sons of God shouted for joy?”  (Job 38:4, 7 )

and this quote by one character, Mrs. Obrien(played by Jessica Chastain) follows “Old Jack’s quote:”

The nuns taught us there were two ways through life – the way of nature and the way of grace. You have to choose which one you’ll follow. Grace doesn’t try to please itself. Accepts being slighted, forgotten, disliked. Accepts insults and injuries. Nature only wants to please itself. Get others to please it too. Likes to lord it over them. To have its own way. It finds reasons to be unhappy when all the world is shining around it. And love is smiling through all things. The nuns taught us that no one who loves the way of grace ever comes to a bad end. I will be true to you. Whatever comes.”

The plot centres on an American family, the Obrien’s, and their struggles with questions concerning this life and death. They are a religious family who have their world turn into a whirlpool when one o f the children dies at the age of 19. They question their god after the loss of their son and try to cope with their loss using the bible. The film’s setting spends a lot of time in the memories of the eldest son, Jack(played by Sean Penn), who is now a middle-aged man still reeling over the loss of his brother. The movie travels even further in time to the beginning of Earth and has few voices when it does so. The questions asked of god when the boy dies are very poignant because these were questions I used to ask before my de-conversion. The questions still ring in my ears because they have existed from the beginning of human thought and human history.

Quotes from the best IMDB:

Young Jack: Where were You? You let a boy die. You let anything happen. Why should I be good ? When You aren’t. 

Young Jack: [on camera] Help me not answer my dad… Help me not to get dogs in fights… Help me to be thankful for everything I’ve got…

[whispered voice over]

Young Jack: Where do You live?

[on camera]

Young Jack: Help me not to tell lies.

[whispered voice over]

Young Jack: Are You watching me? I want to know what You are. I want to see what You see. 

Father Haynes: He is in God’s hands, now.

Mrs. O’Brien: He was in God’s hands the whole time. Wasn’t he? 

All of life’s essence, complexity, fragility, exhibited in one family. It’s like watching all of our questions spoken from others and answered the best they know how. The movie is steeped in a metaphysical and biblical explanation of life. Me being a secular humanist in my world view and personal philosophy, it’s hard to put down my lens and biases as I move through this life, and even harder when watching a movie dealing with such heavy subject matter. I am also someone who believes value is  relative and not absolute. I consider myself an existentialist in the most basic definition possible(I am no expert). For instance, Some people will see beauty in life’s intricacy and abundance and others won’t care. Some people are inspired by possibilities, viewing their life as one of many. Others remain glued to a script they didn’t write. The Tree of life is filled with passion and hope—it’s like witnessing redemption through cinema, and I value it greatly. It’s an event you have to witness not watch.

Ok I’m done sweating, I’ll zip up my pants, I’m done pleasuring myself after watching the movie and writing this post. I will note one imperfection. I find the attempt to redefine god through its lens and explain life using this redefinition to be a little stale. It’s an explanation of god that’s been done. But in any case, I fell in love while watching this movie and became smitten with its style and presentation of its message(s). I am in awe obviously and have watched it twice and will watch it many more times.

Update: 

“What you bring to the film will ultimately effect what you take away from it. “ Very good review of the same movie.

I copied the top image from another really good review here.

I also decided to post this song, Sun Rise. It is a song that describes my journey from beginning to the present. It’s called Sun Rise because I want to see the light after living in darkness/blindness for so long. Well I want to see the Sun Rise. It is a song on my Who’s Afraid of The Dark? project. Check it out.

Produced by 100bulletz

If link won’t work try this:

http://snd.sc/rkWhqs

Oh No I’m still here. I missed out on the Biggest Bailout of the Century. Holy Shit!

They're gone.
Where is everyone??

OOOOOOOOO NOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!
I stopped blogging in anticipation for this day. I don’t want to be destroyed in the final battle.  I don’t want to be thrust into the lake of fire. Alas, my greatest fears have crystallized……I’ve been left behind!!!! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!

Here, this guy Xenocrates explains why the rapture failed.